Still Waiting

Saturday, July 21, 2007

sighs, feel so fan, so unloved.

he's always so busy, i'm always too free.

i know im supposed to concentrate on my studies but i just cant, cos he's not around me.

did he even read my blog? i told him soo many times that i've been updating my blog. did he make the effort to read?

sighss...guess what goes ard comes ard. the days when i started work i was busy too. so yups. perhaps now we've switched roles. great!..

had steamboat for dinner just now! so bloated, so fat. zzz. he didnt turn up when i really wished he can be here. i wished so hard, just like how i wished that he might turn up early morning during my birthday with beautiful flowers. sighs.

but i didnt see him. i'm so sad esp when ALL my family members asked why he didnt come. so lonely!!!....

ever since after i stopped working, we stopped meeting for many days. and this time round, our first ever record.. onw whole week without each other's shadows. occasional phone calls without any meaning at all. sent him smses late in the nite but he's always sleeping and can never reply. sighs.

recently he's so busy with so many stuff. is he slightly interested in other girls? is he really so busy making my present? i dun wan anymore present if its gonna upset me so much like this.

everytime i call him, he's always busy, if not it'll end up a miss call. everytime i MSN him, there's no reply.

i hate myself for being so weak and so dependent on him.

i hate to be able to live only with someone's presence.

god i'm suffocating.. i just want him to spend more time with me! simple. even if he just sits beside me and watch me do my work. even if he just sits beside me and watch tv tgth. even if he just send me occasional sweet sms-es. even if we just hug each other and keep quiet. i'll be contended.

that's my birthday wish.

-when are you coming back? ;